I need you so much closer....

Maybe it's the 3 new gray hairs…

Who knows why things fly through the mind. Maybe it’s the Compass Box Scotch/Whiskey (thanks H), or Death Cab for Cutie, or the month of February, or just cleaning all day and making dinner for my little family, but I am reminiscing. My memory is long, tonight these thoughts are sweet, and dear internet, I want to share some of them with you…

It could have been the sleeting rain today, but I remember my Dad would come and wait for us 3 to arrive at the bus stop when it was raining so that we did not have to walk the ½ mile home. Usually he would have boxes of candy with him, Boston Baked Beans, Good N' Plenty, LemonHeads. It would only take ½ a minute to get home, and it was always my favorite car ride.

I remenber my sister Princess Mombi and I used to sit in paper shopping bags in our kitchen, empty all the pots, pans & utensils & play “school.” If only school would have been so much fun, maybe I would have gotten better grades. Or maybe it was just hanging out with Mombi that was so much fun, because when we were working and taking classes together at U of A it was fun all over again.

Then there is Markovicious, my wee sister, as in the littlest, albeit now the tallest, used to draw my friends & I amazing drawings for how young she was at the time. And later, she would make me sculptures in clay. Just in case you were wondering, my 1^st little monkey, I still have them all.

And then I remember my Mom’s 35^th birthday. I was 10 years old, and we got her a leather mini skirt & a silver sequined tank top. We made her get dressed up and dance with us in the kitchen to The Motown Story till my dad took her out “really dancing” at the Library Lounge. My mom, the oldest of 3 crazy girls, had 3 crazy girls of her own before she turned 35. And I have friends who are over 35 and are still not sure if they want to have children. Crazy.

When I turn 35, Ellie will be able to remember my birthday, no doubt, as she will be almost 7. And maybe – there is that chance – that I too will have 2 or 3 crazy kids of my own running around.

So Ellie, if you ever read these rants your Momma puts out there into the great beyond, get me a leather mini skirt & a sequined tank top, & we will dance all night long in the kitchen to our favorite music… and you will always remember, like I remember, there is nothing greater than this love… and we are making history.

“ I need you so much closer/ I need you so much closer/ I need you so much closer/… So come on, so come on, so come on…”

-over and out-